07 September 2003 & entirely shady operation

this whole deal is entirely shady. apparently my school has gotten wind of certain people's certain online journals & they're asking parents to take action in getting them off the internet.

my parents know i have this but they've never read it, & i know when they tell me this they're telling me the truth because my parents are glorious.

& they're worrying now, they don't want me having this online, because this is so dangerous, because i could be sued for libel.

but honestly, what do you know about me (lauren, put your hand down)?

these girls were fucking stupid & they put down their full names, their exact location, teacher's names, the name of the school... dumb fucking girls.

are you going to sue me for libel?

i'm debating keeping this up or taking it down. i thought i finished with this last spring. i ended the third diary & i said - it's been a time. but i can't stay away, i just can't stay away.

my dad keeps asking me - why would you want to put it online? it's private, it's a diary. why would you let the world see it?

because the world can see the words but they can't see me. or maybe they can really see me, they see the words & the emotions & todos & me, i'm as inconsequential as the second period in the ellipse. the way i look doesn't matter.

i suppose this is my token online diary worshiping entry.

i won't update probably for at least another week; i don't want to run the risk of updating at school.

you take care of yourself until then.